body shakes; bushy tree; many small boards; hallway; symbol message; real or hallucinatory
摘要
The time of spring afternoon, I followed my ordinary schedule to give supervision of group psychotherapy for psychiatric residents at National Taiwan University Hospital. When arriving at 14:00pm of the hospital, I took a rest in the car due to an hour earlier. Two to three body shakes were sensed while I was sitting and napping on the car chair. Nothing wrong came into my mind, and I thought it was from dream firstly at the time. I continued napping, but then I recollected leaving the car without any consciousness in my tracing memory. Wondering what the scene was in front of me, and I moved forward to see. A globe of bushy tree appeared ahead, and many small boards dispersed at the intertwined branches. Each tiny board had a print name of deceased people. Then I stopped watching because of regarding it would be unlucky and turned my face to the right. A long and deep hallway came to my sight, and a big board with the words of “death room (往生室)” hanged on the wood beam of roof. I walked without any hesitation along the hallway, completed the supervision and went home. There was no time interruption between walking along the hallway and doing supervision in my conscious memory.
At the evening of same day around 19:00pm, I accidently received a call of my sister’s family. They told me that my sister just passed away. All of a sudden, I awakened and realized the afternoon experience soundly was a symbol message. But I was not sure it was a “real or hallucinatory” incident. After sister’s funeral affairs was settled down, a couple of days later, I returned the spot. There was certainly neither bushy tree, nor hallway. So, what was it? It was a dream or pathology, hallucination or dissociation? What was the difference between them? Or it was a “beyond” episode!
